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(Part 1)
Kamila Szlowieniec from EBS , Share Him 5-20th Dec 2009

Since the beginning I was sure to choose to go on mission trip to Honduras mainly because I could face the biggest challenge for me – preaching and everything what was connected to public performances. Since I remember it has always been the biggest stress for me which kept me away from serving more in my home church. I prayed for it a lot and now I saw God was giving me opportunity to face it. I knew we learn the most about relying on God and trusting Him when we follow His voice especially when we are called to do something which scares us.
For long time I was asking God where is my place on this world, what work He would like me to do. I had a lot of questions specially about education I should get. So with the luggage full of questions I decided to go through this experience.
I had some problems with laptop. I lost sermons which I had already edited so I had could present them with translation in one hour. I lost work of about 20 hours. I knew I will not finish preparing them before Share Him campaign would start. I decided to do my best and trust God. Holy Spirit was working through weakest but willing.
On the first meeting my laptop was frozen. Just before it had worked perfectly. I tried to repair the problem but there was no answer. So altogether with people we prayed that God’s name might be glorified in the way He wants it. Laptop didn’t work. I was praying: God, God..o no! not on the first meeting. You are almighty! Why You do this to me? Why You put me in this situation?
I couldn’t do nothing else so I just said: Ok Lord.. I will share how You changed my life and how wonderfully led me till now. But I know this is your business and You will not leave me alone.
When I surrendered myself I saw Him working. First He gave me peace, then – words and thankfulness for all He had done in my life. Holy Spirit was working hard. Audience paid attention and I could see faces which were filled with joy and praise little by little. Some people were moved.
This was one of the most beautiful experiences in my life but this was just the beginning of God’s wonderful work.
All who were partaking in Share Him stayed in nice hotel about 90 minutes driving from the capitol Tegucigalpa where we were holding meetings. To get to mine church I had to spend about 2.5 hours for one way. I got back to hotel about 10 pm and was so tired that instead having devotional I prayed shortly and went sleep. After 3 meetings seeing how God was blessing I got more relaxed and did not prepare myself to preach as good as I should. And what was even worse I didn’t prepare my heart to speak about Him.
That evening the topic was GOSPEL. I was preaching the most beautiful message to those people trying to move their hearts while in the same time mine was unconnected from the only Spring of Life. I felt so bad. So unfair to those who were listening and most of all to God.
My translator said it was good sermon but I felt it was disaster.
When I was back in my room I cried to God and asked for forgiveness. I studied message of Calvary once again.
I realized great responsibility I was holding and how much my mistake could cost that evening. I felt this big desire to work like Jesus did, to love people and to lead them to Christ.
Since this time even though I was very tired I spent quality time with God and also study presentation for next day before going to sleep which was often after midnight.
I could clearly see how His hand was leading me and how Holy Spirit was working day by day. I prayed for love to audience, for forgiveness of my sins, smile and energy to preach. Every time He listened and answered.
Before Share Him started I asked God for leading me to proper church and godly pastor and I got really blessed with the place and people. Ceramica was a small 6 months old church with 30 members and young pastor Leonel Marron who was truly committed to God. The setting was a peaceful and humble place in the suburbs of Tegucigalpa.
By God’s grace usually about 90 people were attending the meetings including about 20 visitors.
On every presentation I shared mine or my family experience connected to the subject so day by day people could get to know me more. I showed them some pictures of my family, of Poland and I also tried to teach them a little Polish.
After it one girl, Vanessa wrote me tongue twister in Spanish and next day I tried to read it. It was funny.
When the time to say goodbye came it was amazing how close to each other we became. A group of closest to me people prepared special artistic program and bought a cake as a gift for my 19th birthday which was next day.
I got some small gifts. One poor boy gave me a pen, little girl wrote a letter in Spanish which after translator read to me. One friend of mine bibleworker William wrote a song and made a presentation with pictures of people from the church. It moved me so much. Even though the had not much, they were ready to share with the little. But most of all I could feel their kindness and love.
When after 1.5 hour of hugging and saying :Adios! with everyone I was leaving the place I knew I will always miss those wonderful people.
This small church will always have special place in my heart. Church, where Jesus is in people’s hearts, where Holy Spirit convinced 12 persons during the campaign to be baptized. Church where God taught all of us so much, where so many miracles have happened - the biggest on in my own heart.
All through Jesus ‘s grace and because of what He has done to save.